"We never get paid what our labour is worth, that's why we often in a daze on the way to our work, and when we get there, we can't wait to be out ... so let me tell you what its about"
From "Proletariat Blues" - Blue Scholars
So an update from my previous post "Penniless and Proud", I now am the proud owner of pennies. Got a job at No Frills stocking shelves .. minimum wage at 26 years old is humbling. Frustrating.
I comfort myself by convincing thoughts of 'this job is temporary', though in the meantime, I turn down gigs to record audio just as the spring filming season starts to pick up because they conflict with my schedule at the grocery store.
I wonder how many others out there are struggling. The news paints a picture of economic depression affecting globally, so I have to believe that I am not alone in this. Which comforts me in some ways, and enrages me in most other ways. I find my time consumed with thoughts of a solution, and then back to my more immediate responsibility of paying the rent, then to trying to think long term financially, and circling back again to trying to figure out how to introduce a global solution to our economic and social problems.
No one likes to hear this complaining, and as much I hate to complain to others. The result is to retreat inwards and pretend like everything is ok, in essence, to avoid others or to lie to them.
Spring is here, so I come out of hibernation and start to make plans. My next phase is to seek out employment teaching English in Japan with my brother Ben. We'll get year long contracts, pay off our remaining debts and hopefully save some money to come home with.
To all my friends and family that I keep in the dark, I hope you understand that I'm always thinking about you, care about you, and can't wait to see you all soon.
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